Now I needs to get my scanner working so I can scan my paintings and offer as prints in case anyone wants them

Now I can't wait to try a few things

Cleaned a little house yesterday ... and can't seem to not cough every little bit now.

Gotta find some puter art programs and learn how to do anthro art and manga ....

Ah well

I think the side effects of the albuterol are making me way more tired than normal after it makes me wired. But the coughing is sooooo much better, so I'll take it just fine!

Finally found a dvd copy of "Mallrats". Wooo hoooo. So we've been having a Kevin Smith evening. LOVE IT!

On an aside ... the panic attack is over after adding the poetry yesterday. Whew!

And it sucks that my only good poetry is about an old friend.

After that relationship tanked, I just didn't feel like writing anymore. Hell the most recent poems were written after I tried rekindling our friendship the last time.

How can I be this hung up on shit 16 years later??? Damn man I need a shrink in a bad way!!!

And what does that say about my marriage of 8 1/2 years??? ( I love my husband, I really DO!!!)

I'm screwed in the head and heart and don't know what do think right now.

I'm blaming all this emotional crap right now on the side effects of the albuterol. That was my excuse at work all day today and yesterday, so that's my excuse tonight! Yep, that's my story and I'm sticking too it!

Can Valentine's Day skip this year? I don't need the added stress of remembering shit from that too!

URGHHHHHH!